because of you - after school

아직도.. 나 그대를.. 잊지 못해
I never forget boy, I never forget boy
Ajikdo.. na geudaereul.. ijji mothae
I never forget boy,I never forget boy
I.. still.. can’t.. get over you
I never forget boy,I never forget boy


헤어진지 벌써 몇년이 지났는지 몰라
그대 생각만 하면 자꾸 눈물만 흘러
오늘따라 왜 그렇게 네가 보고플까
창밖의 빗소리가 내 맘을 흔들어 놔
He eojinji beolsseo myeot nyeoni jinatneunji molla
Geudae saenggak manhamyeon jakku nunmul man heulleo
Oneul ttara wae geureohke niga bogo peulkka
Chang bakkwi bissoriga nae mameul heundeureo nwa
Can’t remember how many years it has been since we broke up
But I cry every time when I think about you
Why am I so eager to see you today?
The sound of rain droplets leaves my heart shaken up

사랑하지 말걸 그랬어
정 주지 말걸 그랬어
붙잡지 말걸 그랬어
왜 이렇게 나 혼자 아파
사랑하지 말걸 그랬어
정 주지 말걸 그랬어
붙잡지 말걸 그랬어
왜 이렇게 나 혼자 아파
Sarang haji malgeol geuraesseo
jeong juji malgeol geuraesseo
Butjapji malgeol geuraesseo
wae ireohke na honja apa
Sarang haji malgeol geuraesseo
jeong juji malgeol geuraesseo
Butjapji malgeol geuraesseo
wae ireohke na honja apa
I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?
I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?

난 항상 너만의 장미가 되려던 내 맘을 아니
이제 조각 난 사랑의 마침표가 되었다는걸
눈물이 밀려 와 메마른 입술이 젖어
이젠 어떡해 그댈 잊을 수 없어
Nan hangsang neomanwi jang miga dwiryeodeon nae mameul ani
Ije jogaknan sarangwi machim pyoga dwaetdaneun geol
Nunmuri millyeowa memareun ibsuri jeojeo
Ije eotteokhae geudael ijeulsu eobseo
I tried to be your only girl
And did you ever understand my heart?
Now its become the compass
Of broken love
Tears are flowing down
And soaks the dry lips
Oh what should I do,
Now I can’t erase you out of my mind

너 때문에 많이도 울었어 (매일 밤 난)
너 때문에 많이도 웃었어 (그대 때문에)
너 때문에 사랑을 믿었어 (Woo boy)
너 때문에 너 때문에 모두 다 잃었어
Neo ttaemune manhido ureosseo, maeil bam nan
Neo ttaemune manhido useosseo, geudae ttaemune
Neo ttaemune sarangeul mideosseo, oh boy
Neo ttaemune, neo ttaemune, moduda ilheosseo
I cried a lot because of you (I cried every night~)
I laughed a lot because of you (Because of you)
I believed in the love because of you (Wooh boy~)
I’ve lost everything because of you

정말 답답답해 갑갑갑해 막막막해 너 없는 세상이
내 말을 씹어놓고 자존심 짓밟아놓고
내 맘을 찢어놓고 왜 나를 떠나가
Jeongmal dap dap daphae, gap, gap, gaphae
Mak mak makhae, neo eobtneun sesangi
Nae malmameul sshibeo nohgo jajonsim jit balba nohgo
Nae mameul jjijeo nohgo wae nareul tteonaga
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?


그 날도 비가 왔었지 한참을 그댄 말 없이
나를 바라보기만 했어 어어어
흔들리는 눈빛과
애써 짓는 어색한 미소가 이별을 얘기해줘 줘줘줘
Geunaldo biga wasseotji hanchameul geudaen
Mareobshi nareul bara bogiman haesseo
Heundeulli neun nunbitgwa aesseo jitneun eosaekhan
Misoga ibyeoreul yaegi haejweo
It also rained on that day
You’ve stared at me wordlessly
You’ve stared at nothing else but me
Those trembling gazes,
And the awkwardly forced smile
Speaks of our separation

사랑하지 말걸 그랬어
정 주지 말걸 그랬어
붙잡지 말걸 그랬어
왜 이렇게 나 혼자 아파
사랑하지 말걸 그랬어
정 주지 말걸 그랬어
붙잡지 말걸 그랬어
왜 이렇게 나 혼자 아파
Sarang haji malgeol geuraesseo
jeong juji malgeol geuraesseo
Butjapji malgeol geuraesseo
wae ireohke na honja apa
Sarang haji malgeol geuraesseo
jeong juji malgeol geuraesseo
Butjapji malgeol geuraesseo
wae ireohke na honja apa
I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?
I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?

나보고 떠나라고 할땐 언제고 떠난다니까 어쩌고
미친 사람 취급만 해 정말 힘들어 Boy slow down
아무런 말도 못한채 울어
Nabogo tteonarago hal ttaen eonjego tteonan danikka eojjeogo
Michin saram chwigeup manhae jeongmal himdeureo boy, slow down
Amureon maldo mothan chae ureo
You’ve told me to leave
And the moment leave
You treat me as if I’m insane
It’s just too hard (boy slow down)
Then I cry silently and wordlessly

Cause I want to stay next to you
My love is true
wanna go back to when I was with you

너 때문에 많이도 울었어 (매일 밤 난)
너 때문에 많이도 웃었어 (그대 때문에)
너 때문에 사랑을 믿었어 (Woo boy)
너 때문에 너 때문에 모두 다 잃었어
Neo ttaemune manhido ureosseo, maeil bam nan
Neo ttaemune manhido useosseo, geudae ttaemune
Neo ttaemune sarangeul mideosseo, oh boy
Neo ttaemune, neo ttaemune, moduda ilheosseo
I cried a lot because of you (I cried every night~)
I laughed a lot because of you (Because of you)
I believed in the love because of you (Wooh boy~)
I’ve lost everything because of you

정말 답답답해 갑갑갑해 막막막해 너 없는 세상이
내 말을 씹어놓고 자존심 짓밟아놓고
내 맘을 찢어놓고 왜 나를 떠나가
Jeongmal dap dap daphae, gap, gap, gaphae
Mak mak makhae, neo eobtneun sesangi
Nae malmameul sshibeo nohgo jajonsim jit balba nohgo
Nae mameul jjijeo nohgo wae nareul tteonaga
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?


I miss you I need you 꿈 속에선 아직도 I'm with you
I miss you (Miss you) I need you (Need you)
시간을 되돌려 Wanna kiss you again ma boy
I miss you, I need you Kkum sogeseon ajikdo I’m with you
I miss you, I need you
Shiganeul dwi deollyeo wanna kiss you again, my boy
I miss you I need you Even in my dreams I’m with you..
I miss you I need you
Rewind back the time I wanna kiss you again ma boy

맘이 너무 아픈데 견디기 괴로운데
너는 어디서 뭘 하니 나 울었어 참 많이
너 없인 난 못 살어 내게로 돌아와줘 날 떠나가지마
Mami neomu apeunde gyeondigi
Gwiro unde neoneun eodiseon mweol hani, na ureosseo cham manhi
Neo eobshin nan mossareo
Naegero dorawajweo nal tteonagajima
My heart aches
It’s too much to bear
And where are you? (I cried a lot)
Can’t live without you
Please come back to me
And stay with me


너 때문에 많이도 울었어 (매일 밤 난)
너 때문에 많이도 웃었어 (그대 때문에)
너 때문에 사랑을 믿었어 (Woo boy)
너 때문에 너 때문에 모두 다 잃었어
Neo ttaemune manhido ureosseo, maeil bam nan
Neo ttaemune manhido useosseo, geudae ttaemune
Neo ttaemune sarangeul mideosseo, oh boy
Neo ttaemune, neo ttaemune, moduda ilheosseo
I cried a lot because of you (I cried every night~)
I laughed a lot because of you (Because of you)
I believed in the love because of you (Wooh boy~)
I’ve lost everything because of you

정말 답답답해 갑갑갑해 막막막해 너 없는 세상이
내 말을 씹어놓고 자존심 짓밟아놓고
내 맘을 찢어놓고 왜 나를 떠나가
Jeongmal dap dap daphae, gap, gap, gaphae
Mak mak makhae, neo eobtneun sesangi
Nae malmameul sshibeo nohgo jajonsim jit balba nohgo
Nae mameul jjijeo nohgo wae nareul tteonaga
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?


karena lagu yang gw suka biasanya sesuai dengan perasaan hati gw saat menulis
jadi, gw ga perlu berkomentar apa"
lagu ini uda melambangkan semua yang gw rasain

tapi koq music video na ga nyambung sama arti lagu na ya ?
hahaha
MV na cuma joget" doang.. ==a

source: youtube, jpopasia.com

hard gay attack

baru" ini, di kalangan tmen" cosplay saya lagi demam HG
eit, meskipun namanya hard gay, tapi ini bukan tontonan gay koq
jadi ini semacem acara TV di jepang
yang host nya thu seorang yg ga waras *menurut gw*
dy pake baju ketat, kacamata item, dan hot pants
trus sering teriak" norak kayak "okaaaaayyyyy" atau "hadogei desuuuuu"
sambil menggoyangkan pinggulnya. oh my...
ini adalah salah satu contoh tayangan HG



sebenernya norak sih, tapi lucu banget liat kelakuan dy
kalo gw ketemu dy bneran di jalanan, gw juga pasti bakal kabur
serem lha, tampang dan baju kayak preman gitu
dengan teriak" kayak orang gila. haha
padahal dy baik lho, suka bantuin orang,
main sama anak", uda gitu orangnya kuat banget
*pegulat sih..*

ini acara uda lama sih,
tapi gw baru tau dan baru rame di kalangan temen" gw baru" ini
pokoknya, maju terus hadogeiii ~
*mulai menyebar" racun HG*

okaaaayyyyyyy ~~ XD

butterfly in stomach

lg iseng ga ada kerjaan,
trus jadi bikin ginian deh
lagi nge trend di kalangan cwe" audition, gw sih ngikut" aja hahaha
banyak sih artist" screen shot kyk gini
tapi cuma beberapa orang yang gw suka artwork nya
nah, yg ini salah satu bikinan gw..



jujur aja, karena crop nya lama, dan pertandingan uda mau mulai
(gw bikin artwork ini buat mengisi waktu luang nungguin world cup mulai)
gw bikinna buru"
background comot dari google smua (padahal mestina gw bikin sendiri)
tinggal tempel char, kasi tulisan, kasi frame,
dan voila !
langsung jadi deh hehhehe

mengenai konsepnya,
gw pengen bikin cwe lagi blushing gitu
malu" pas ngeliat cwo yang dy suka
trus buat bikin tulisan nya
gw keinget,
kalo liat cwo yang kita suka itu,
biasanya kerasa kayak sakit perut gimanaaa gitu
yang biasanya dibilang, ada kupu" di dalam perut. hehehe
trus googling deh, dan ktemu quote itu

source: audition ayodance, google

yakult factory & lido lake

hari rabu kmrn, gw diajak nyokap pergi ke pabrik yakult di sukabumi
brangkat na sama orang-orang di sekitar komplek galaxi,
dan kebanyakan sih orang-orang gereja
karna kepagian berangkatna, jadi kami pergi ke lido dulu yang ada di dket pabrik
htm lido Rp5.000,00

buat keliling danau, kita bisa sewa sepeda air bebek Rp20.000,00



kalau pergi rame", dan males nggenjot bebek, ada juga rakit motor
aslinya sih Rp7.000,00 / orang, tapi biasa lah, sia abang-abang ngasi sembarang harga
jadi kemaren gw naik Rp10.000 / orang



kalo naik rakit banyak pemandangan bagus di sekitar danau
sementara kalo ga naik cuma ngeliatin di pinggir aja,
kurang seru.. XD







di pinggir danau ada ibu" jualan pisang lilin
tapi niat banget yah mpe nyebur" gitu



di sisi lain danau, ada tambak





karena ga disediain makan siang,
jadi gw, nyokap dan cc gw makan di rumah makan padang di sekitar lido
abis makan siang, baru deh cabut ke pabrik yakult..
ga jauh koq dari lido, paling cuma sekitar 15 menit perjalanan

karena di dalam pabrik ga bole foto"
jadi ambil di luar aja deh..
tapi kesan pertama abis balik dari pabrik..
"yah, cuma gini aja nih ? gw kira ada apaan.."
tapi ga rugi juga koq kesana
itung" jalan" dan nambah pengalaman
mumpung gratis tis tis..
bus na disediain pihak yakult, asal bawa rombongan aja







yakult jumbo... hehehe

cat in the roof

tadi pagi, gw lg jemur baju,
pas liat ke genteng tetangga
eh, ada kucing lg nangkring disitu
lucu banget
pose na kyk logo merk apa gitu, gw lupa
langsung lah gw turun dan ambil kamera
emank foto na msh kurang bagus sih,
soalna gw ngambil gambar na buru"
takut kucing na kabur atau ganti posisi badan hehehehehee

gataumaupostapa

saia mengalami kebosanan akut disini
bengong di depan layar laptop dan ga tau mau berbuat apa
bukannya ga ada kerjaan sih
kerjaan emank ada banyak, tapi gw nya aja yg males ngerjain..

dari kemaren" uda mau posting di blog nih,
abis kangen jg, uda lama ga update
tapi masalahnya, gw bingung mau posting apaa..
akhirnya malah post curhat ga jelas kayak gini deh

hidup gw selama liburan thu.. FLAT
bangun - makan - main - wc - makan - tidur siang - main - makan - ngenet - tidur
dan semua acara jalan" yang uda gw pengen sejak UAN ga ada yg kesampean
karna :
1. ga ada temen ngebolang
2. entah kenapa lembaran duid itu ga bisa bertahan lama di dompet gw
dengan kata lain, gw ga punya duid buat jalan
gw sendiri bingung thu duid abis gw belanjain kemana

ah yaa, gw lupa memasukkan 1 kegiatan di hidup penuh kedataran gw
nonton bola
mumpung lagi world cup,
tapi gw ga dukung sapa" sih
jadi ya sekedar nonton untuk mengisi waktu terlalu luang aja
nonton pun kadang dibalik laptop sambil rusuh di twitter

pengen cepet masuk kuliah aja biar ada kegiatan
karna jujur aja, otak gw uda membeku gara" libur kelamaan
tapi kalo uda kulia ga bisa jalan" lagi dongg..
lagian kykna kehidupan kuliah bakal sama kyk rutinitas sekolah juga

hmm..
butuh sesuatu yang -kalo kayak lagu glee-
defying gravity